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  She looked at Gerry, whose mouth was pulled tight the way it always got during an argument, especially when he was in the wrong.

  Slowly, Marina said, “I’m not going to like this, am I?”

  “I don’t know,” Gerry countered. “You might like it a lot, if you stop to think about it. I want a divorce, Marina.”

  She stared at him. They’d been married for ten years. They must have made love a million times. She knew everything about him, how stupid he looked when he was flapping around the office in a tantrum because of something at work, how tender he could be when they were alone together. He was handsome, and he worked hard at it, exercising at a gym, spending lots of time buying clothes and moussing his hair, he was even considering having a face-lift because he needed to keep his image young and fresh. She knew how his older brother’s success as a physician overshadowed Gerry, how his parents scarcely saw their younger son because of the blinding light of their older son’s brilliance. She’d held Gerry in her arms as he wept bitterly after they spent Christmas with his parents. Her love for him had been the motivation, really, for the fury with which she attacked her own part in their business. She had wanted to protect him.

  True, they weren’t getting along very well recently. Their time and conversations together revolved around work. He was probably sick of her relentless failures to get pregnant, and for her own part, Marina had to admit she hadn’t felt close to him for a long time. Still. To bring up divorce like this, in front of Dara—what was he thinking?

  “Gee,” she said snidely, “nice of you to wait till I had my birthday party to tell me.”

  From the other side of the table, Dara spoke up. “Marina. There’s something else.”

  Marina turned toward her friend. Christie and Dara had been the first to know when she’d gotten her period, the first to know when she’d lost her virginity, the first to know when she’d fallen in love with Gerry. Marina had been Dara’s go-to person during her two marriages and grisly divorces. Dara was a beauty, apple-cheeked and bosomy, sensual and seductive.

  Oh.

  Gerry had found comfort with Dara. Which was why Gerry was talking in front of Dara.

  “You and Gerry,” Marina said flatly.

  Dara nodded. “Yes.” She raised her chin defiantly. “And Marina, I’m not going to apologize. You’re not in love with Gerry anymore. I know that.”

  “Really. Did I ever say that?” Marina demanded.

  Dara blushed. “Marina. There’s something else.”

  “Good God,” Marina cursed. “What more could there possibly be?”

  Dara’s eyes flew to meet Gerry’s. Her face became radiant. Her smile was absolutely Mona Lisa.

  It felt like a knife slicing through her entire torso. The pain made her breathless. “You’re pregnant.”

  “With my child,” Gerry added, unable to keep the pride from his voice.

  It was almost dazzling, how quickly Marina’s life changed after that. Of course, Gerry and Dara, in their eager selfish joy, had already plotted the path. With Dara’s money, Gerry bought out Marina’s half of the business. Gerry had already spoken to an agent who had a buyer lined up for Marina and Gerry’s condo. With no children or financial issues, the legalities of the divorce were dealt with in a flash.

  Suddenly, within a matter of weeks, Marina lost her husband, her work, her home, and one of her very best friends. Most of her current friends were Gerry and Dara’s friends, too. They strained to be supportive to Marina without insulting Gerry or Dara, and that just made it difficult for everyone. Marina had to let them go.

  Her parents had retired to sunny Arizona. Over the phone, they offered her love and understanding, but they were just a little bit I-told-you-so. They’d never liked Gerry. She saw a couple of therapists, but their advice was what she expected: You have to go through this loss, you can’t go around it. The Japanese sign for “crisis” also means “opportunity.” Their words were not much help in the middle of the night. Cartons of ice cream and old black-and-white movies worked better.

  Christie saved her life.

  “You’ve got to get out of town,” Christie advised her. “Here, you’re just mired in misery like an old horse stuck in mud.”

  Marina had snorted out a laugh in the midst of her tears. “Thanks for the glamorous image. And where would I go?”

  “Where do you want to go?” Christie countered.

  Marina blew her nose and shook her head. “I don’t know.”

  Christie bellowed at her sons, “I told you boys, not in the house!” She turned back to Marina. “Why not Nantucket? Summer’s coming up. We had so much fun those summers, remember?”

  Marina leaned back in her chair and thought about that. During college, she and Christie had gone east to work as waitresses in a huge swanky hotel. They didn’t make much money, but they had free lodging, free nights, and a few free afternoon hours. They swam, partied, worked a bit, and returned to Kansas City as brown as nuts and grinning at themselves.

  Marina protested, “Oh, Christie, we were young back then. I’m old and worn out and pathetic.”

  “You certainly will be if you don’t move your ass,” Christie insisted. “If you stay here indulging in self-pity. Think of it, Marina, the blue ocean, the salty air, the freshness of it all.”

  “I won’t know anyone,” Marina said.

  “Well, isn’t that the point?” Christie replied.

  Now Marina found herself smiling. It was good, just to think of Christie and her practical optimism.

  And Christie was right. Being here, away from there, was a kind of therapy. While out of sight was not completely out of mind, the reality of Gerry and Dara was not such an oppressive reality.

  But she ached with loneliness. Leisure did not come easily to her. She’d worked hard to learn her trade, and she and Gerry had labored diligently and ceaselessly to build their business. She was accustomed to the sound of phones ringing, people chatting, footsteps hurrying past her office; she was used to the pressure of presentations and the dozens of little victories of accounts won and money made. She’d been such an excellent multitasker, scanning reports while she ran on her treadmill, dictating memos while she drove to a meeting, flirting with new business contacts during the intermission at a symphony.

  Now, on this bright, airy island, she felt like a piece of flotsam lost at sea, without a compass or any way to communicate to others. The ocean expanded all around her. She was alone, as insignificant as a little cork bobbing on the surface.

  But she wouldn’t give up.

  She grabbed up the newspaper and a pen, and began to circle anything that caught her eye. Noonday concerts at the Unitarian church. A comedy presented in the evening by the Theatre Workshop. She hadn’t realized how many museums there were. The Nantucket Whaling Museum was right in town. So was the Maria Mitchell Science Library and Observatory. And the Coffin School. And someone was offering painting classes. Hm. She’d have to consider that. Gerry had always been the visual guy; but it might be fun to learn to do watercolors. She’d get a library card, too, and stock up on all the juicy novels she’d never had time to read.

  And maybe she’d get to know Jim and his daughters better. Anything could happen, right?

  8

  Lily

  Driving home from Carrie’s, Lily felt wistful. Carrie and her baby existed in their own sensual world of love and touch and cooing voices. Carrie had gotten slightly plump and she moved as if her limbs were heavy and when she held her baby in her arms, Lily could walk through the living room on her hands and Carrie wouldn’t glance her way. Lily didn’t want a baby, but she would like to live, for a while, in such a lazy world of love.

  What she’d really like to have was another car, she thought, as she steered the rusty Old Clunker through the narrow streets. She wouldn’t even ask for a new car. Just a newer one. Her father had bought the Toyota sedan when Abbie was seventeen for her to use on the island. As the years passed, all the sisters had us
ed it, referring to it with fond aggravation as the Old Clunker. She hadn’t minded its humble state when she was a kid, but now that she worked for the magazine, she hated showing up at posh events in such a tired tin can.

  Her father’s truck was in the drive, so she parked in front of the house. He would probably leave before she did tomorrow morning. As she walked up her drive, she heard laughter. She walked around to the back of the house and went in the back door.

  Her father and two sisters were seated at the kitchen table.

  “Hi, honey,” her father greeted her. “Want some ice cream? We saved some for you.”

  “Oh, but I made a pie, especially for Abbie’s homecoming!”

  Abbie raised a skeptical eyebrow.

  Emma said, “We didn’t see any pie.”

  “It’s on the windowsill in the pantry.” A little panic washed through Lily. Had her sisters assumed Lily had just blown off responsibility for tonight’s dinner? Well, in a way, she kind of had.

  She went into the pantry and found the pie. Somehow a box of cereal had been shoved against it, so you wouldn’t notice it unless you knew it was there. She carried it out and set it on the table. “Ta-da!”

  “Wow, Lily!” Abbie said. “What a masterpiece!”

  Lily flushed with pleasure. “Let me cut you a big piece.”

  “Tomorrow,” Abbie said. “I just finished all that ice cream.”

  “I’ll wait, too,” said Emma. “I’m stuffed. Dad brought home fresh bluefish and Abbie cooked it perfectly.”

  Well, Abbie would, wouldn’t she, Lily thought. She felt both jealous and guilty. She should have prepared dinner for Abbie’s first night home. She’d intended to. She just got waylaid at Carrie’s.

  “I’ll have some pie,” her father said.

  As Lily cut a piece for her father and settled in at the table, Abbie told her, “We were just talking about all the changes in town since I’ve been gone. So many restaurants have closed, and so many stores downtown!”

  “The economy is rough everywhere,” Emma said.

  “I guess that’s good,” Lily offered, trying to be upbeat. “In a misery loves company kind of way.”

  “Dad,” Abbie asked, “how are you doing?”

  Their father took the time to finish his pie before answering. He nodded at Lily. “That was delicious, honey.” He leaned back in his chair and seemed to be physically summoning up his strength. “I’ll be honest with you, Abbie. Times are tough. I had three different clients back out of their contracts to have new houses built and one actually shut down on the renovations I was doing and didn’t pay me. I think I’m going to have to take him to court to get any money out of him, and I don’t know that hiring a lawyer wouldn’t end up costing me more.”

  “So what jobs do you have going on?” Abbie asked.

  Their father shrugged and shook his head. “Just small ones. A couple of renovations. Nothing substantial. That’s why I rented the Playhouse. I always knew in the back of my mind it would come in handy someday.”

  Abbie asked, “How long is the rental?”

  “Marina’s got it for six months.” When he said the woman’s name, their father blushed.

  The three sisters exchanged glances.

  Their father cleared his throat. “While we’re on the subject, I probably ought to tell you … I’m going to sell the boat.”

  “Dad!” Their voices came out in one surprised chorus.

  “You can’t sell the boat!” Abbie continued.

  “Honey, I know how attached you are. We all are. I don’t want to sell it. But if I can … it might keep me going for a little while longer … and things might change …” Clearly he was having trouble speaking about this. “If I sell the boat, that might buy me a little time until a new job comes in, and then I won’t have to sell the house.”

  “Sell the house!” the girls cried.

  “I know, I know, I hate it, too, but it might come to that. Now, it might reassure you to know that I do have some savings in an IRA. Not a lot, but with social security, I should be able to live pretty comfortably for the rest of my life. The thing is, I can’t take out the money until after I turn fifty-nine and a half or I’d have to pay some fees and penalties. So I’ve got a few more years to go before I can touch those IRAs. I think I can make it, if I watch my pennies, but …” He held his hands out in a what-can-I-do gesture.

  “Oh, Dad, this is terrible,” Abbie said.

  “Well, I’m not putting it on the market right away. I just want you to know it’s got to be an option in my life.” He shrugged. “And come on, it’s way too big for me. If Lily weren’t home, I’d rattle around here like a marble in a bathtub.”

  Lily watched her sisters for some kind of wisdom. But Abbie and Emma just sat there stupefied.

  “You know,” their father said, “it might not be such a terrible thing for me to sell the house. I mean, I don’t think any one of you wants to live the rest of her life on the island, and if I sold the place, I’d make a nice fat sum of money and I’d have something to give each of you.” He studied his daughters’ faces. “Abbie? You look like I’ve just hit you over the head with a board.”

  Lily could tell her sister’s smile was forced. “Sorry, Dad,” Abbie said. “I think jet lag is clogging my mind. I can’t seem to think right.”

  “Well, don’t worry about it,” her father told her. “I don’t want you girls to worry about anything. I mean, if any of you were to get married, have some children to come here for summer and holidays, then I can see this big old house might be worth struggling to keep. But as it is …”

  Emma made a choking noise and burst into tears. Shoving her chair back, she rose. “Sorry.” She ran from the kitchen and up the stairs to her room.

  “She’s really taken it hard, Duncan breaking off with her,” Abbie observed quietly.

  “Duncan was an asshole,” their father said, surprising Lily. He seldom swore.

  Lily smiled. “You’re right. She’s better off without him.”

  He pushed back his chair and stood. “Well, I think I’ll catch some of the ball game before I go to bed. Let you two catch up on some girl talk.”

  “Night, Dad,” Abbie said.

  He pecked a kiss on their heads. To Abbie, he said, “It’s great to have you home. And thanks for cooking dinner.” He left the room.

  “I was at Carrie’s,” Lily blurted out. “She’s got a baby now, a little girl only seven months old, and Carrie’s exhausted. I went over to help—”

  Abbie interrupted Lily by leaning back in her chair and yawning enormously. “Oh, man, it’s hitting me now.” She stood up. “I’ve got to go to bed or I’ll fall over on the floor. Good night.”

  “Um … good night,” Lily replied. She stood alone in the silent kitchen, with all the dirty dishes for a meal she hadn’t eaten.

  9

  Emma

  Rain streaked down the windows like teardrops. Perfect for Emma’s mood. She checked the clock: 6 a.m. She groaned and rolled on her side, trying to fall back asleep. Instead, her thoughts flashed a slide show in her mind, a private DVD of images of Duncan and Alicia, happy, together. Perhaps she dozed.

  Someone tapped gently on the door. “Emma? Honey?” It was her father.

  She didn’t answer. She didn’t want to see him.

  The door opened. Her father came in and sat down at the end of her bed. He smelled of Old Spice and his own particular scent of soap and wood dust.

  “How’re you doing?” he asked softly.

  She muttered, “I’m fine, Dad. Don’t worry.”

  “It’s raining,” he told her. “It’s down in the lower sixties, if you can believe it. Be sure to wear a sweater when you go out. It’s supposed to be cool and rainy all day.”

  If she could remember how to smile, she would have smiled. That was so Dad, presenting the daily weather—the hourly weather—in detail. He always had been a devotee of the Weather Channel. She supposed it was his way of taking car
e of his daughters now that they were grown.

  “Thanks, Dad. I’ll wear a sweater.” If I get out of bed, which I won’t.

  “Well, then, I’m off.” Her father leaned over to kiss her forehead. “See you tonight.”

  “Right.”

  Her father closed her bedroom door behind him. Emma remained pinned to her bed by the needles and knives of her misery.

  Where was Duncan at this very moment? He had never lingered in bed. When their alarm went off at six a.m., Duncan would be awake instantly, and he’d roll on top of her, whispering, “Hey, baby, let me give you one,” which now that she thought about it was ironic, because their morning sex was always over so fast it didn’t give her anything at all. She knew, for Duncan, it was a kind of start-up point, a way of checking his first item of the day off his list. He’d jump up from bed, rush into the bathroom, and shower. She’d shower while he shaved, they both dressed, and he drove them to work while she put her makeup on in the car. As they rushed into the building, they’d grab a double java jolt coffee from Starbucks.

  She thought that with Alicia, Duncan probably could slow down enough to enjoy making love. With Alicia, who was already rich, and safely rich, Duncan didn’t have to move so fast because he didn’t have so far to go to get to what he wanted. Would Alicia sleep at Duncan’s apartment, or would he sleep at hers? What would her apartment be like? Emma had Googled the address. It was on Commonwealth Avenue, in the pricey, elegant part of the city, not far from the building where they worked. So probably Duncan would sleep at Alicia’s, rather than at his place, which was in a nice but not posh apartment in Watertown. This would give them even more time to lounge around in bed.

  Alicia’s hair was a sleek brown pageboy. It never frizzed—she’d been born with sophisticated hair. While Emma’s stupid hair would coil into curls at the slightest whisper of humidity. She had to blow her hair dry, then iron it to get it to lie down and look groomed; she could never hope for sophisticated, not with freckles. It was one of the things that drove Duncan mad about her; he hated how long she took to dry her hair. He was always afraid they’d be late for work, which they never could have been because they always got into the building an hour before everyone else, so they had time to scan the news streamers and Asian stock reports.